The Funky Chicken

http://www.geocities.com/lunar_feak/me.html
I came across this site through the Caringonline-Eating Resource webring which I'm part of.
I thought it was worth a look in, its always good to see that there is light on the other side, that its not always an easy road to recovery but you can get there and go on to live a healthy life, here is a paragraph from her site (Go check her out!!)

'Another of my demons. I have no idea how long I suffered from this, I recon since I was around 11. I know it was at its worst when I was 15. I used anorexia as a way to escape from my depression and all the nasty thoughts. Filling my head up with thoughts on weight, how to loose it, and calories, to avoid dealing with my crappy existance. For most of my adolescence, all my memories are to do with food, and how fat and repulsive I felt at the time.'

Feelings

I will post more info on male anorexia as I find it but as it is very scarce, it will be in between my new entries.

This time of year always conjures up old feelings from my acute anorexic years, because it was so close to Christmas, end of the school, while all my friends were partying and celebrating the end of 12 years of school, I was lying in bed, wasting away to near death.

The other day I saw a woman about 20ish carrying a 1 year old on her hip, and I noticed there wasn’t any flesh on her hip and her legs were like sticks. My heart skipped a beat…so many emotions went through my body but the strongest was this overwhelming sense of anger. I wanted to stop her and tell her what she was doing was crazy, she ought to eat something, that life was too short and it just wasn’t worth it…just to name a few. I was so close to doing it about 10 times, of course she ends being wherever I was, having children myself naturally the likelihood of ending up in the toy department was very high. I refrained and in the end I had to ignore her, cause for some reason I had this enormous urge to shake her! I have spent years and years recovering and here is this woman with a child – a future generation to nurture and what kind of role model was she choosing to be.. one I strive to avoid being, everyday. It was not a good feeling.

My thoughts today

I thought it was time that I shared some of my thoughts today but before I do, if you have ever looked into the archives of my blog or have read the paragraph in my heading and wondered where is the rest of my story is...well its not completed, as it is still extremely hard to reflect back to my painful anorexic days, in order to write it, I find I'm reliving it, so my story will continue, just over time.
Now to today. While searching for websites on male anorexia, I have had many flashbacks to various things people said to me and my friends/ family reactions. They varied so much but what stands out the most is the reactions from the male members in my family. They felt helpless and distanced themselves from me. I to this day still don't know what they were feeling or thinking, we really don't talk a great deal, let alone about that painful time in my life. Which just goes to show how hard it must be for male anorexics to get help, when our Dad's, Brother's, buddies can't talk about it with us and want to pretend its not happening or want you to just get over it.
Its so important that the father's of tommorrow strive to open up the communication with their sons, so that there is a loving environment for these young men to share their hearts with the people that matter to them the most.

I have this site in my favourites as it is very informative:
http://www.anred.com/toc.html
and here is the direct link to an article on male anorexia which is also in the contents of the above website:
http://www.anred.com/males.html
A paragraph from the above article.
"Clinics and counselors see many more females than males, but that may be because males are reluctant to confess having what has become known as a "women's problem." Also, health professionals do not expect to see eating disorders in males and may therefore underdiagnose them".